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Nana, 19 on 31st January




Sunday, September 18, 2005

Hello world.

A new blog,a new beginning.
Since i last blogged,life has been full of ups and downs.I miss blogging.It's been rather difficult and there are times when i just feel lyk breaking down but im not permitted to.People around me think Im a hepi person and my family nvr cares to ask how my day goes or anitin.Friends dun bother to look beyond e surface n loved ones are too busy leading their own lives without me.

So blog,it's just you n me.N readers who care to read :)

Lately ive been rather selfish.N not to mention guilt.Today,he waited for me again to finish tuition.He sent me to e bus stop n den he asked me whether i wan to go to causeway pt wit him.i wanted more den anitin to say no but he had waited for me for abt 45mins(witout me telling him to,mind) n acit had cancel out on me AGAIN for e 2nd time diz WKEND,n not forgeting he ditched me on fri jz so he can take cab home wit ziq.so i duno wad hit me but i said yes.we window shopped a bit before he decided to belanje me play e arcade.i had a great time actuali n he asked me to watch his gig during dec.

i kol-ed acit on my way hm n gez wad.he was playing POOL! he lied to me again.thanks yang. break every promise u make,y dun u.

Izam msged a while ago to inform me he's on his way back to e hostel n tt he cant wait to c me tml.i wish we can all be friends but true wad redwan say,people dun tink tt way.

I nid to turn back time.I wish i can scream it all away but its still here,luring me to even more mess than i already am.I dont need them,i need you.n I need to change myself but I dunno how to.Take my hand n hold me tight.Its been so long since I last felt protected.